Ya know, when life throws you for a loop, my most common reaction is to hold it in and go it alone. I don't want to impose on others or listen to the potential whispers in the halls at church or have that common southern phrase be used in reference to me. You know it..."Bless her heart, she's to poor to remove that toilet paper from her shoe, she might need it later."
So, I was at our ward Relief Society meeting on Thursday and all my emotions, fears and prayers just bubbled to the top and in an epic emotional spewfest I told anyone who would listen how I was struggling. I couldn't help it. Call it hormones or call it the spirit moving me to share, but it happened. And do you know what happened? They put their arms around me and blessed me so abundantly. A dear friend of mine took me home with her that night and gave me six bags full of groceries, plus an extra turkey she had bought on sale. I ran out of Vitamin B to keep my nausea at bay and another sister brought me two bottles, which by the way is enough to last my whole pregnancy and then some! But, apart from the physical needs they rallied around and shared with me their stories of times when they had gone through similar things and then testified that there is a way out, God never leaves us comfortless and will always provide a way for things to happen. He never allows his children to be tried more than they can bear.
And now as I sit here reliving those feelings of friendship and sisterhood, I can't help but remember the scriptures from the book of James in the bible when he speaks of pure religion and what it really means to be a disciple of Christ. I think that any time I read those verses, the memory of that relief society meeting and the faces of those sisters who put their arms around me will be forever ingrained in my memory.
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